CD5

It wasn't really a concious decision, but it was a decision nonetheless. AF arrived 3-5 days early. I wasn't happy, but I didn't get overly upset either. I found myself looking at a calendar and I kept focusing on CD3. So that night, I went to the medicine cabinet and dug around and found some of my leftover meds. I am going to give it another shot. It may not lead anywhere and I know that, but I have a sort of "calm" about it all right now. I still want another child, but I am so far removed from the every every 2-3 hour feedings and the diaper changes and the potty training that I have resigned myself to this is it.

In other news...... SIL#1 apparently got some bad results on her AFP. Instead of talking to any of us about it, she spent 3 days freaking out and acting like a class A bitch to all of us. We all found out over the weekend after it was all said and done and she had found out that everything was actually fine with the baby. She did find out that it is a baby girl. I am excited that DD is going to have another little girl cousin. But I am still wondering how the rest of the grandkids are going to be treated by MIL once this little bundle arrives.

We are supposed to go see BIL#1 this weekend. I am looking forward to it. I desparetly need to get away on a vacation though. DH didn't grow up going on vacations, so he doesn't really see the necessity in them. Therefore, the only time we get away is for family. I NEED A BEACH!!!

Don't think anyone is reading this anymore............and that's okay. But if you are reading it, I pray that all is well in your corner of insanity :-)