Friday, July 24, 2009


I didn't think I was but there is alway the hope. Aunt Flo has not shown up yet and she has been early the last 4 months, soooooo.............last night I POAS. BFN!!! Not surprised but disappointed.

Monday, July 6, 2009


POAS today..... faint second line!!!

In other good news..... the meds didn't make me feel ill at all!!!

Had a great holiday week-end. Went to BIL #1's house. It was great to get out of town and away from the drama that goes on here with the SIL's. DD had a blast playing with other kids her age and we enjoyed relaxing, eating and watching some great movies. It rained most of the weekend, but I really didn't mind. It did rather put a damper on the fireworks, but again.... I really didn't mind!!

One bad thing..... DD had a really bad mosquito bite and we discovered it is infected. It looks a lot like the infection she had back in the spring. I am praying really really really really hard that it is much improved by the end of today. She is going to have a holy fit if we have to take her to the doctor to have it cut out. She still talked about the doctor poking and cutting her before!

Today is kinda back to reality. We are short staffed at work with no hope in sight of it changing, but I am trying hard to not get stressed over it. I am just trying to focus on getting done what I can and the rest will still be there tomorrow :-0

Wednesday, July 1, 2009


It wasn't really a concious decision, but it was a decision nonetheless. AF arrived 3-5 days early. I wasn't happy, but I didn't get overly upset either. I found myself looking at a calendar and I kept focusing on CD3. So that night, I went to the medicine cabinet and dug around and found some of my leftover meds. I am going to give it another shot. It may not lead anywhere and I know that, but I have a sort of "calm" about it all right now. I still want another child, but I am so far removed from the every every 2-3 hour feedings and the diaper changes and the potty training that I have resigned myself to this is it.

In other news...... SIL#1 apparently got some bad results on her AFP. Instead of talking to any of us about it, she spent 3 days freaking out and acting like a class A bitch to all of us. We all found out over the weekend after it was all said and done and she had found out that everything was actually fine with the baby. She did find out that it is a baby girl. I am excited that DD is going to have another little girl cousin. But I am still wondering how the rest of the grandkids are going to be treated by MIL once this little bundle arrives.

We are supposed to go see BIL#1 this weekend. I am looking forward to it. I desparetly need to get away on a vacation though. DH didn't grow up going on vacations, so he doesn't really see the necessity in them. Therefore, the only time we get away is for family. I NEED A BEACH!!!

Don't think anyone is reading this anymore............and that's okay. But if you are reading it, I pray that all is well in your corner of insanity :-)